Hey, all you 3 or so people who have ever wandered over my page. Well, tuns out my camera finally said that it had had enough. IT as good for the year it lasted, only an 80 dollar piece I got from Wal-Mart. And of course, all the pictures I took were completely reuced to nothing when the card got wet, somehow. Oh fudgicles. Well, hopefully soon, after paying for the repairs to my parent's van, the insurance on my car, and my reno's, I can buy a new fancy schmancy camera. Looking at just buying another point and shoot, not quite ready to do anything good with SLR, still need a few pointers on that. Also looking at going back to mixed media when I can, so stay tuned.

Except neither of us were right.

How could I ever think that I had a chance?

Yes, we admire each other, kinda cute little thing going on, but...

I see your life in a viewglass, and I doubt I could ever really fit into that. Your life is so... ALIVE, it's amazing, I see all this fun stuff, how people talk abotu you how people interact with you, and how you and him just click at parties...

and... I get it.

Even if it were to happen, I wouldn't ever be where you wanted me. I know they wouldn't accept me, I'm way too different. I would have to change my life, or force you to change yours, neither of which I can do...

So, I get it. It would be nice if it could still work out, but sadly, I doubt it will, so right now, I give in. You don't owe me anything not any of those missed coffee dates, not any magical trips down by the brook, not a single thing of yours is owed to me.

All I owe you is to disappear, and make it seem like none of this had ever happened. All I can think is that that would be the best way to do things.